"Mark had been telling us some of the lessons of his life. 'Don't wake up at the end of your life,' he said, ' and find that you've had yourself at the center of it all along.'� He went on: 'You have to find some one, some thing, some purpose greater than yourself to which you're devoted, and cultivate that devotion.� Really give yourself over to it, whether it's teaching, music, family, the law, children, meditation, yoga, gardening.� Whatever." (p. 302)
"Being 'in the state of flow' doesn't mean that we spend all of our time in bliss in the nondual realms.� Flow means allowing ourselves to be surrendered to life, to the way it is, and to forget ourselves in pure involvment in our work, our task at hand, our love - without worry over teh outcome.� As Robert Frost said, 'Freedom means moving comfortably in harness." (p. 303)
I am hoping that this element proves to be the thing that I need to carry me through this time in my life. I have kept a written journal before, when I joined the Army, it helped to get me through the tuff time of seperating from my wife and kids while I served. Now, times are truly tuff again and I could use the anonimity of that this medium provides.� The therapy that I have found with Journaling I am hoping is even better by using this service.
you know how thay say things come in three's well first my iron blew up then my kettle suddenly developed a crack down the side and then my computer went bang it's back on after a freind who's an expert at them came over but even he said it is on it's death bed so now i have to buy a new one it should be here on friday so with a bit of luck no more problems . oh and i have to have another operation on my arm next week so things are going to be fun to try and do with just one hand but as always i will manage .my son goes back to school in two weeks too so he wont be around to help during the day and my other half will be at work so looks like i will have to retrain the dog to do dishes and ironing lol .
Crazy weeking helping A move her stuff, some drama to discuss with Chez about her relationship, and went out to dinner with GoodBoy to celebrate his exam success.
- 12:45 - First update possible this morning.�
- There were� Portal issues this morning related to the log space on the Minotaur cluster.� Apparently it sent out warnings about the situation but� nobody got them due to our "private time" settings on weekends.� (we don't like to be disturbed on weekends, so on Sunday nights, all pages are held between 11pm and 5am.� Even on critical systems.� d'OH!)
-Network issues in the office related to the installation of new carpet.� I drove in this afternoon to do a Satellite presentation to the OPS guys, and because we're interviewing another candidate today.
- Working on an on-boarding document for new folks.
- 1PM - Satellite demo is just about ready.
- Satellite demo went well and I'm going to patch the Dev Portal on Tuesday.� Actually, I'm going to see if Chops wants to do it.
o - Interview went well.� Everyone agrees that this guy is a better pick than DevilBoy so I'm pretty sure Mr. T. is going to extend an offer.� Good for us!� :)
4pm - Going home for the day
I think that in order for me to accomplish everything I want within the time this life has allowed me, I will need to build a goals list. This isn't something I have to stick to daily. It can be changed as I grow and change mentally and physically. I may add to or subtract from it as I like but this will help me to do the things I dream of and discover myself along the way.
1. Do something new every week. Something I have never experienced even if it is just eating a strange food I have never heard of.
2. Make a true difference that is everlasting to one person.
3. Do everything by giving 100% no matter how crappy I feel about doing it.
4.�Travel and photograph the world.
5. Build trust in my relationships.
6. Lose weight
7. Make 10 new friends this year
8. Double my clients list and give them 100% in all I do for them
9. Save money and Send Jen to England
10. Forgive someone completely even if it takes a lifetime
11. Smile even if it hurts
12. Cry if I need to
13. Spend more time in nature
14. Have an enormous amount of fun while I am young enough to
15. Laugh daily
16. Stop being lazy
17. Dance in the rain every chance I get
18. Love like there is no tomorrow
19. Slow down, turn off phones, and breath for 15 minutes each day
20. Spend my life being happy and surround myself with people like that
Just noting the weekend's happening:
Saturday was fun, we held�Pam's last Sample Sale for this year. The two saturdays brought in more money than the three saturdays back in March. So good-now we know that August is more profitable than March.
We loved the experience, it's natural for us to be organized so that part is nothing. We enjoyed having people come by to shop, especially unique because the items we're selling have no emotional connection to us. So buy or don't buy, it's no matter to us. Some folks like to�chat, some tell their life story! Sometime you get a person that has a misguided strategy of hoping to get a great deal by pretending not to know english. We didn't just get off the bus so we're not easily fooled. But really people - Why??
Saturday afternoon we strolled downtown to shop the farmers market and hit a couple other shops in the area. Beautiful weather helped to create a relaxed outing for us, we were grateful.
Home alone Sat. evening - more fun!!
Sunday, on our walk we stopped to praise a neighbor on his new fence. He ended up telling us about his backyard neighbor's suiside. Whoa! We remembered�Sean telling us he'd seen cops there the other day as he was biking to the gym but didn't know why. It turns out that someone reported seeing�the man that lived in the house behind our neighbor laying in his yard. The police discovered that he had been deceased for at least a day! Oh man, while our neighbor with the new fence was sorry (he didn't really know his neighbor) he was oddly fasinated by the mystery of it all. We shared this morbid moment with him and admitted we were drawn in and�felt strange. Isn't it wierd how we can't tear ourselves away from someone else's misfortune?
paterbabe 54, Female, Pennsylvania, USA - 69 entries
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